MAIRAH

its time for me to let it go.that's confirmed. yet to tell him bout it. and its done. i got to moved. and i really thought about what Jeremy told us today. it's true. we are going backwards. there's nothing changed. im recovered by those weird and scary nightmares. till one of friends are too afraid to talk to me. coz i was damn hyper. she said im weird. (punye lah susah kau nk angkat phone call aku)... -.- friends huh?

guess some people just dont know the meaning of  "F-R-I-E-N-D-S" yet...

its ending. trust me. now, i have to give it to ___ and let her have it all. it happened again huh? me giving up to them??? i really had enough of it. i have made my on decision and i know what to do next. i have to face the music. pity ___ or not, i have to do what is right for me. you can call me a bitch in front of your friends. but you actually dont realised that you used to call your "friend" a b-i-t-c-h too. think about it. you cant always get want you want in life. you have to give up on something you really loved though you actually dont want it to let go. you have to, in order to gain something even better in future. you cant always live in the past. you might not gonna know whats coming up later in life. you cant always have the good things. you have to accept the bad ones too. friendship is nothing without ups and downs. i show you my attitude, because i have reasons for it. i keep quiet doesnt mean, i dont know whats going on. i just want you to slowly realised it yourself when you go through it slowly. the mistake is, you always want whats best for you. thats the thing that i kinda dislike it sometimes. "the older you are, the childish you're getting to be", thats exactly what Jeremy said.. and it's true. only 20% could see the world in other perspectives, unlike the other 80%. omg! i was so attentive to what he said. haha! and do you really know the meaning of b-i-t-c-h in the first place? its a dog. they are the ones you called "bitch" are actually not, you're just judging them without any evidence. they are just being themselves. let them be what ever they want to be. as long as they, themselves, didnt bother you. if they did, it doesnt mean you need to call them that. might as well, you call yourself a bitch then calling others. im not try'na blame someone. but it logic. you got a brain to think. you know whats bad whats good. you know how to compare. dont tell me you have to go back to your kindergarten school. you're human. you breathe. you got feelings, so do others. im sure you dont want others to get hurt. what if you're them?  are you happy if someone calls you a "bitch" or what so ever? out of no where? im sure you dont like it. a friend would tell his/her friend their mistakes, so that they can learn from it. that's what F-R-I-E-N-D-S for. friends would not let their friends alone. friends would not let their friends do the wrong thing. that's a friend.

you know you need someone,

when the need's so strong,

when they're gone you dont know how to go on..

so the whole world is stuck in a moment

standing still until they come back

you accept that they've got things to do

but sometimes in the end there's nothing left for you

if hurt is missing you baby,

i've done too much of it lately..

evey minutes like an hour,

every hours like a day,

every day lasts forever,

but what else im gonna do

I'D WAIT FOREVER AND A DAY FOR YOU

i wait up, wait up.

i cant eat, i cant sleep,

what else could it be missing you so deep

long as im where you're going to

i'd wait forever and a day for you

i wait up, wait up for you

and even when we mad,

and say we're through

deep inside you feel the same way i do

might as well turn around and just end this

cause its harder trying to stay mad

i could tell you that you cant stay here

knowing just as soon as you disappear

that i'll be missing you baby

SOON AS YOU GET UO AND YOU WALK AWAY...

miss me?!  haha! im going somewhere(overseas) next week! its time for me to take a break! seriously.. i'll be away for 4 or 5 days! yeay!

im having a hard time recently. im became a selfish person, a reserved person, and also an emotional girl. cant deny. its true. SO true!

There's no need any expplanations as to why im acting so not me recently, EVERYTHING that happens around you explains it all.

Got it? im sure i dont have to explain what it means.

now i know the reason why i cut my fringe...

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there's blood flowing everywhere!

urggh! i have been so nice to you. that sometimes you take the advantage of it. yeah... i may be a nice person to everyone. But, there's always a limit to it.

i have feelings. So, for now, i have to think about my feelings! not you anymore! im so agree to what you said about next year. I have to be strong no matter

what. i cant always depend on you and vice versa. And for you, i gave you the time. you need time to adapt. but i gave you TOO MUCH!

Since you want to know so much about my problems, so read it! I KEEP IT TO MYSELF for the mean time....

had enough of her nags t home. and now, im at my granny house. using my cousin's lappy for a while. at last! or else, i may not get the chance to touch the computer/ lappy at home! due to some BULLSHITS reasons! urghhh! it's not my mom who control my life, you see... my sis of course! -.-

sometimes, friends or even cousins are much more understanding than our family. that's what i think uh... an opinion, i can say. ( my granny thot my doing some school work. haha!)

i told my mum about the second class chalet. She said she have to get some advices from her " ms counsellor". so much for it! and that "ms counsellor" turns out to be my sis! ouh great! -.-

hey hey! came back from chalet, and i cant stop looking at the bed! hah!

too bad it have to come to an end. i just hope that we could be in the same class next year and until we graduate Kranji Sec!

We had a lot of fun! And share great memories together! Maybe Next year, we could organise another class Chalet for only 2G '09! how bout that?!

I will upload our photos on my facebook tonight! and maybe on our class blog! :)